Jellyfish

Jellyfish

I see it all so clear
Like a movie inside my head


Every idle moment
When you're not in sight
I turn you in to something else...
Authored by a neurotic mind
Written by an anxious soul

Doubts drub in my dreams...

Every little fact
You missed to say,
I fill it up.
With spiteful thoughts
And it drives me mad...

Where are you?
What's that noise?
Whose voice is that?
Every move you make
I need to know

I'll find you!
I'll catch you red handed!
You'll both pay!
Why am I like this,
I just don't know

Ambivalence blight my being...

Your glass is eternally half full
While mine gathers dust
Living for you solely
Makes me hate you more...


Every blessed moment
When you're in sight
I smile and forget it all
Thinking how I messed everything up
Realizing how I've gone too far

I see it all so clear
Like a sinner's dreadful fate

And now I must die

Creature of Apathy

Creature of Apathy

Like the wind that carries
Clouds that yield no rain
I bring to you a creature
Dearth of joy or pain




For me every thing's a bore
Things like cruelty I ignore
While others give, love, and care
I stand still, watch, and stare


For I'm a creature of apathy
No I will give no sympathy!
Life for me is a living oblivion
Glutting it with lack of emotion




Children as casualties of war
Babies left on churches altar
Trains that went off track
Give others a heart attack
Some cure and ask God "why?"
But not me, I just won't cry

For I'm a creature of apathy
Break the law, what is it to me?
Generals and their corruption
I find them so old fashion




Sickness, hunger, and poverty
I've seen it all in person
What you see in movies and TV
Come pale in comparison
Terrorism, robbery, and hold up
They just don't measure up!

Like the circus that carries
Rides, clowns, and vaudevilles
Brings amusement and diversion
Bright lights that draw attention




Entertains us and makes us laugh
Wearing fake smiles and make up
Afraid their faces might reveal
Inside, what they truly feel




For I,m a creature of apathy
Or at least, I wanted to be
For all the grieving is eating me
Closer to the verge of insanity




Oh! how I wish I was numb
Close my eyes, not give a damn
Imagine how easy life would be
Peaceful, unruffled, filled with serenity
If only I was without a conscience
No concern, just innocence

For I'm a creature of apathy
It's a mask I wear you see
To conceal being vulnerable
Easily coaxed, so susceptible

Now this knife of compassion and sympathy
I hold tight and point against my heart
Because to love, care, and worry
Is all I do from the very start
Now I admit, I can never be
A creature of apathy